note to self

Dear Beat,

Once you stand up from this kerb, you need to make the difficult decision to want the best for yourself. It may be painful, it may hurt. It may make you feel like you've lost the very thing that once defined you. But you need to realize that even if things did turn out differently; even if this relationship didn't fall apart, the same problems will always remain. You've tried to work things out, you gave your best. And if that's not enough to make him want to change for you.. Then there's nothing else you can possibly do to achieve a different outcome. You would always be stuck in the rut - never getting the most you can get, never being treated the way you want to be. Love conquers all.. And if the love you had with him was insufficient for him to make the sacrifices necessary, then you've got to take a deep breath, stand up and move on.